When I am Disheartened & Impair

Do you see my endless tears in the water?
Do you see my broken heart as the waves form and crash?
Do you see the permanent damage as the creases in the water never fade?
Do you see my reflection as u feel your sense of right and wrong?

I am not just a little boy who fell down and hurt his knee…
I am a little boy who fell in love and had his heart torn apart.

To breathe seems like a chore… 

To open my eyes in the morning seems like a waste…
To trust seems impossible…
To smile seems so far away…
To laugh feels like a craving…

To love again is and will always be a dream that never comes true.
I am not myself anymore…

My chest hurts…
My heart aches…
My eyes weep…

And my body feels like it’s covered in endless flames… 

Peace seems so distant…
And my eyes are just not good enough to find it.