To my friends

To my dear friends; when everything was set and fine, the wind of prejudice blew thy way. It doesn’t mean that you are total losers. It doesn’t mean that failure is fatal. It means that it is the greatest prospect to get up.

A Chinese proverb reads, "Failure is not falling down, but refusing to get up." it suggests, it is not the falling down that is the failure, it's the staying down.

When we fall short, experience a setback, or things just don't go our way, we have two choices: give-up or regroup. One of the biggest problems with failure is when we think it means something to our worth or our value. If we can frame failure differently and instead see it as an opportunity to learn and grow, then it stops being a source of self-criticism and self-doubt, and becomes a tool for self-improvement. You all can do my dear friends!

It’s important to remember that often a failure or setback can bring the kind of clarity that nothing else will. Failure can be viewed as a great gift, an opportunity for a new, creative approach to a specific situation, or maybe even to life in general. As Napoleon Hill once wrote, "Failure is nature's plan to prepare you for great responsibilities." What great responsibilities await you?

Good luck my dear friends we’ll miss you all a lot.

Dedicated to Phuntsho, Sonam, Tshering and Galay..

Love II - ANger

Love and anger cannot coexist together. Anger will always push away love. A person cannot swallow poison and then remain healthy; so, too, a person cannot receive anger and still feel loving toward the angry person. We are not Jangchu Sempa. 

Negative feelings are always more powerful, pervasive, and long-lasting than positive feelings. One or two negative interactions will easily spoil ten or twenty positive interactions. Anger in the form of criticism, sarcasm, hostility, or cruelty, is a very strong negative emotion. Anger is "love's poison."

It is normal at times to feel irritated with your love one. We may not like how they prepare food, dress, talk with you, or the way they do something. At these moments, we have a choice. We can respond either with patience, kindness and understanding, or with judgment, anger and conflict. If we respond with anger and criticism, we will almost certainly ruin our relationship. I ended many relationships due to anger and conflict.

Guru Khentse Ozer

Successful relationships are built with love and respect. Anger and arguing will drive a wedge between us and our partner, making mutual feelings of love and respect impossible. Simply, if we want a loving relationship, keep anger out of our boundary!

Arguments between love birds are a necessary part of relationship, this is not true. The goal should be to never express anger, dispute, or get into a serious fight. Nobody wants to get sick. We do many things to avoid falling ill. However, when illness comes, we understand it is a normal part of life. The relationship between lovers is the same. We strive for continual peace and harmony.

Every relationship’s goal is to get together after sometime and be one. I was blessed to get advice about how to go about to get marriage in our life. “It is the toughest stuff in life. It can’t be easily dragged down, pushed away, get rid of. It will give you the severest headache. Even if you take five to six paracetamols at a time you won’t cure that headache”. This was the superb guidance specified by Guru Khentse Yeozer on 9/12/2011 when I visited him to get teaching about life.


Be careful and choose your partner!!!

Love I - Introduction

To love or to hate someone or somebody depends on way of life were we have grown. No one is born with hatred to hate and to be hated. And no one is born with love to love and to be loved. But it develops and inculcates in self as we rise inch by inch and when we learn to be good human beings.

I was born all alone. Soon I came out from the womb I was in fact thrown out in the society of relations, where I learned to hate, love and list goes on... Because people around me hate me, love me, seduce me and too list never stop.

To love and hate someone or something, age doesn’t matter. I don’t remember when I started to disgust someone or something. But I evidently remember the instance when I have fallen for a girl. By then I was a small naughty petite village boy. It was great to know myself that I am in love. Despite the fact that I was small I felt the breezy wind of her smile touches my cheek.  And the sensation of being loved was so strong.

She was cute, shy and funny, but not lucky enough to go to school. She was Beautiful. I thought once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me a wife. 

If ever you need me,

I’ll be right here,

To chase away the sadness,

And wipe away a tear.

If ever you need me,

I’ll be two steps behind,

To follow in your footsteps,

And hear what’s on your mind.

If ever you need me,

You’ll never have to fear,

That your presence isn’t important,

And your love isn’t dear.

If ever you need me,

I’ll always be around,

To bring back the laughter,

Where deep in your heart it’s found.

You’ll never have to worry,

For I’ll always be here,

To chase away the sadness,

And wipe away a tear.

I am here for you!

Thank you Guys!

I was made-up to write about my love history as per my plan but I thought what if I could take time to let people know why I blog and who make me blog!! Thank you guys!! I am motivated!!

Wel come to the World of Blogging!! There is variety of reasons that made people blog. For starters blog is almost a free medium to everybody. There are no specific rules when it comes to blog. Anybody who could write and have internet may blog. That's why it is easy for people to blog.

Blog in itself is a unique culture. Nowadays it is perceived as a fashionable thing to own a blog and actively blogging. Just look around and we could see that just about everybody is blogging.

"I don't want to be left behind!" Blog is really the hot thing among Internet users. Every day the number of blogger has increased. Having a blog simply means you are a normal person. No blog means you are a cave man! So no wonder blog has become the fastest growing application of Internet other than e-mail and normal website.

Actually, there are people who blog out of curiosity. I apparently had no clue or reason at all to start a blog. I could just simply blog by chances and knowledge imparted by below mentioned friends. All of a sudden, I become addicted to blog when I found many benefits and enjoyment out of blogging.

Blog is really a great, if not wonderful place to keep our memory of good things. Blog could act as an archive of data and personal historic facts. We could upload pictures, write an emotional testimony, log of great journeys and love memory, anything at all. This data will be kept in a server which we could recall them back whenever we feel like to do.

Blog has also been used to champion a cause or to convey any great messages. It could be used to reach voters for example. Debates, discussion, expressing opinion, all of this could be done through blog.

For some, writing a blog could be restorative way of handling sadness or coping with tragedy. Believe it or not, we could actually write away all our sadness by sharing it with the world through blog. Blog could be a place to safely store our personal memory.

There are friendships or even love has been made out of blog. You could interact with other fellow blogger and exchange ideas and learn something new. The blogger who has done well also can get recognition by their peers. This only motivated them to do better with blog.

In some way blog actually could be used as a popularity gauge. More visitors to our blog simply means more glamorous we are as a personality. Personalities all over the world used blog to communicate with our respective followers or admirers.

Reasons aside, blog is actually a fun thing to do. Some people do blog to enjoy themselves. They just simply love to blog because they enjoy doing it. I don't need any motivation or cause like money, politic or anything for that matter. I just blog and enjoy myself. This I would say, the most envied reasons of all cause that made people blog.

So let's join the ship. Let's just blog for the sake of blog. It is really fun and great to have a blog.

My sincere thanks and applaud goes to the following personnel:

Sonam Tobgay (http://sogyeltobgyel.blogspot.com/)
Tshering Tobgay, OL (http://www.tsheringtobgay.com/)
Leoparisca (http://leythro-darlo.blogspot.com/)
Langa Tenzin (http://www.langatenzin.com/)
Monu Tamang (http://www.monutamang.com/)
Madam Sangdee (http://brokshee.blogspot.com/)
Kunzang Thinley (http://shingkhar.blogspot.com/)
Passang Tshering (http://www.passudiary.com/)
Lekey wangdi(http://lekeywangdi.blogspot.com/)

I am Sorry

This is written for the bird that succumbed to death after colliding on the wall of the building. These birds are usually found near my room enjoying on a giant tree that bears fruit twice in a semester. Early in the morning, I could hear them singing to their tone and chatting. It was on Sunday afternoon when I was studying; two birds flew directly from the tree with full speed and suddenly one collided on the building wall and died after few minutes.

This is the second incident. A month back another bird did the same. But luckily was safe. It was funny for the instant but when I see them suffering with pain and struggling it’s really aching.

I feel sorry for being unable to safe your life. You were warm when I picked from the ground. Your beak was broken and neck was too mislay to hold your head. I tried my level best to safe but in vain. I know how this happened. Actually you shouldn’t be hastening this much. I know the tree is full of what you want and it will be plenty for thousands. You should not have rushed! 

Luckily your friend was safe. Your body became cold and rigid. And I knew you are death now. I am sorry bird. 

That handsome head

with a mighty beak, 

Hands like fists are

where there should be feet.

Wonderful colours cover

Your shape, enough splendors

To make a person gaze.

While you are alive-

With your wings held high

You put a smile on my face.

With all your power

You always left your trace.

Never did I see you frown

For your smile was never upside down.

You were always by my side

And although you are no longer 

I can still feel your presence

Your feathers warming my heart

I will always miss you.

And I know the favor will be returned some day

For when I see once again as like you

It will be in the sky where

They will once again hold their wings up high.

But I feel your good sound is already missing. 

Examination Fever

It is said when the examinations are approaching, the students suffer from examination fever and rightly examinations are regarded as a curse by students. The approach of examinations means the beginning of fear in the mind of a student. Yab it is damn true yaar!!!

As a matter of fact, examinations are the only worry of students. They are the only unpleasant experience in an otherwise happy and carefree life. The worry of an examination interrupts the smooth course of a student's life. Games, musical concerts, debates and other extracurricular activities are all stopped busy in preparations for examinations. Students are not to be found at the play field, restaurants and other places of entertainment during the examination days.But lazy few are found active on facebook like me.

Examinations are held to test students' ability, to check up the work they have done during a term, to judge what progress they have made and to determine whether they have been utilizing or wasting their time. If there were no examinations, the merits of the various students could not be judged, nor would the majority of students take any interest as it is only the fear of examinations that makes students work.

Yet another big tension - RESULT... let me do my best and see who will be the winner. If you win I fail but if I win I am always winner mind it!! and this is the real great advantages of victory against examinations. 

Good luck to all those who are appearing for exams, specially to my fellow friends of twenth standard. Best of Luck. See you all in various colleges!!

I'll Remember

I’ll remember the first time I saw you.
I still remember the first time I called you.
I’ll remember the first time I looked in your eyes.
I’ll remember the first time you smiled at me.
I’ll remember the first time I told you how much I feel about you.

I’ll remember the first time I told you how much you mean to my world.
I’ll remember the first time you said you are interested in me.
I’ll remember the first time we go out together.
I’ll remember the first time we make love.
I’ll remember the first time you told me that we will be like king and queen.

I’ll give you all I have.
I’ll give you my heart.
I’ll give you respect.
I’ll give you love.

Mila's Soekhar Guthog

A man was inspired. He was motivated. He has the power and will. And the man is Lam Kezang. The power and determination of him is what we can’t measure. In 2007 he visited Milarepa Tower in Qinghai, Tibet. “Ever since I visited the Milarepa Tower in Qinghai in 2007, I have had a dream to build a similar tower (Sekargutok or Nine-storied Tower) in Bhutan”.

Due to his immense aspiration to build such tower in Bhutan, Royal Government of Bhutan approved 5 acre site at Rigzinling, Sampheling Gewog, Phuntsholing under Chukha dzongkhag.

All the architectural drawing and access road to the site was completed. On 2^nd November, 2011 corresponding to the seven day of nine month and Rabbit Metal year of Bhutanese calendar the ground breaking ceremony or Salang Tendrel was conducted by His Holiness Je Khenpo.

”We anticipate that, when finished, the Milarepa Tower will become an important spiritual centre as well as a major tourism and cultural attraction.

To build such a Tower will earn great merit for all who participate.

Please give generously! May all be auspicious!” said Lam Kezang Tsheltrium. 

with one of the main sponsors

Lam Kezang

With Lam

The nine-story stupa Lord Milarepa last built was Soekargutok Stupa. It stands in its original position, symbolizing unwavering faith of Milarepa had in his teacher and Buddha dharma.

The merits of building stupas and monasteries are profound and vast and extremely we can't measure. Building a stupa-monastery in memory of Drukpa lineage master Lord Milarepa  is specially so. And contributing few or how much we can will earn merits. 

Are we Helpless??

Let me represent our dear youth, young men and women. This could me what our youth strive for. And here it goes…..

There is no guide book to this game we call life. There are no wrong or right answers; our only clue to living life is our heart.

But what’s one heart without another? What be the point of living life only to fade back into black in the end?

All I ever asked for is a friend or two, but no one ever hears, am I not loud enough? Not clear enough? Or is it I’m not good enough? Is it what I’m asking for not what I need, because in this moment I’m empty inside?

Tonight I’m so insane I want to leave home and scream in the middle street “Hey everyone, I’m alive! I exist! I’m actually real, I’m here.”

Maybe then it’ll be clear to the world what I want is only friendship, love and job, nothing more.

I’ve never asked for money, an unfortunate lesser person could use that prayer elsewhere. I’ve never caused harm to anyone, so why it that I’m treated this way?

Why can I never be happy?
Who am I?
Where and why am I here?

My body’s young, my memories new, yet my soul seem old. All I know is love, yet I’m always kept back in the shadows, no one knows I’m here.

Now I’m making sure tonight someone will know I am here. I’m waiting to meet them, and for whatever is the reason, this mysterious force we call life is keeping me from them.

And I’m sorry, I’m not sure I can make it through alone, please help me get by. My strength has been drain throughout the years, I feel like I’ll break. Help me before I snap into 2 more incomplete parts.

My wish: I will sleep tonight and hope to see you there where I go every night. Only this time it won’t be a field of nightmares but of freedom. And when I wake, beauty will illuminate my life.

But in reality: I know I will wake up to the same world as today is. And so I will keep losing and losing my sanity at age 17. Dealing with depression, with no love, no friends.

So please listen. Please tell me you can hear me; please tell me you know I exist. Tell me I’m not alone; tell me I don’t HAVE TO be alone anymore. This is the last straw, before I become lonely forever, heartless and cold, the one thing I truly despise is the thing I’ll become soon without you. Someone save me.

Help our youth to discover diamond in them. 

Sex and Society

 As a man who passed the youth stage and twenty two year old male, my mind often ends up in the gutter and thinking something nasty, people may say. Impure thoughts about the opposite sex are a common part of our day to day life. Yet we should never use sex as a game.

As we go through our adolescence stage, exploring our sexuality comes naturally. It is something that we thoroughly enjoy, but when does curiosity actually kill the cat?

A good friend of mine was telling me the story of how a bunch of people decided it would be fun to play a sex game at a very wild party.They placed a bag over a girl's head, put her in a room and then the young men would take turns of having sex with her in the room. It ended up that her brother had sex with her because her face was covered.

I can't tell if this story is actually true, or a terrible rumor, but the level that our generation takes in exploring peoples’ sexuality disturbs us.

I am not saying that sex is only appropriate, when we're in love. Sex is great, but when do you begin to lose your integrity?

The way people view SEX in today’s society is basically the total opposite of how people viewed it 50 years ago. Back then it was seen as something to do in privet. Today it’s seen as a way to sell clothes, cars, movies, etc.

The real problem in today’s society is how teens view sex. We the youth should know such stuff about sex. Some guys may view it as something that the sooner you have sex the better, and the more you have it the cooler you are. Girls see it as something to do after you've been dating for around 6 months.

In today’s world there's no such thing as innocents. For all the parents reading this if you think your kid is having sex your right and if you don't then think again. As far as how adults in today’s society view sex it’s pretty easy to guess. Everything we see on TV, Internet ads, newspaper ads was conceived by adults so there view is clear.

I think we should start to curb our curiosity and gain a little self-control, if we want to look back with pride at our youth. If things continue the way they're going pretty soon it'll be a common thing to see middle school kids buying condoms and 12 year olds having abortions.

I’m not saying the way the world view's sex is apocalyptic, but changes should definitely be made if we want to retain some sort of innocents and decency in our society.

Goodbye Rongthong Kunley Dorji

 Trees’ shedding their leaves, death of Giddafi and your death, once again brings home the universal truth of impermanence and decay, the weather becomes dry and crisp.

I still remember narrated story of your deeds from my friend Ngawang who is now working as Police. We were too small to understand such stuffs but he was well understood because the so called marching for the right of people (Drowa meeyee wangcha Gorang go) in 1990 in Gomdar Gewog-my prior block, instigated from his village, near his house. And his father told him in brief.

You have lived 73 years. And I know you are founding president of the so-called Druk National Congress (DNC) in Nepal. I know that at 11pm on October 19 you passed away at Manipal Institute of Medical Science in Gangtok, Sikkim. Due to your deeds many innocents were affected.

You were great enough to cause national threats but dull enough to know you wouldn’t be living long and fulfill your futile dreams. May be you thought that you are to live thousands of years and forgetting the basic fundamentals of life. And finally you are now once upon a time Rongthong Kunley Dorji.

It is nice and appreciated to know that you regretted just before your last breath. You left this wonderful heaven earth with full of regrets.  Carrying tones of regret and reconciliation you knew that, at a dharmic level- as Buddhist, the suffering one has to endure is a consequence of one’s Karma. “Thus, with my body, speech, and mind, as far as my mortal human capacities allow me to, I hereby forgive all those who have wronged me”, “And if I, knowingly or unknowingly, have caused hurt or harm to anybody by my aspiration or actions, seek forgiveness of them”.

Due to your activities many innocent, most Sharchops were affected a lot. They were deprived, once from getting Citizenship Identity Card (CID) and now continuing not getting No Objection Certificate (NOC) from police. Many intellectual youth and logical people were just left helpless because the record - involved in a demonstration was bold and red.

I too was not spared. Record showed that my mother was involved in demonstration. Impossible!! My mother just went to attend census meeting, where all the people of the Gewog were summoned and to their dismay it was not census, it was the arrest of the commoner who mostly are innocent and don’t know about the situation. Due to this trick, all people who were there was recorded as involve in demonstration.

Came 2005, I was qualified to study in higher secondary school with distinction. The big dilemma was whether I’ll get CID or not. I went Thimphu with my friends and luckily I got. Again time passed by with full of zeal and hard work, came 2007 where I was halted for a year due to the above mentioned problem of involved in demonstration. How much I tried it was in vain. Starting from the office of Gup to the Prime minister’s office visiting was only just. Nothing happened. To come tomorrow, after one week, after two weeks… were the Officers’ best words, And Dashos prolonged it even to a year and so on to solve the problem. And that one year story continues still for few. I was not only the one but many students who have had distinction in academic.

What so ever be, I am now happy that the people who were recorded as involved in demonstration now are rectified and issued NOC and CID card.

And one thing that I always rejoice due to this problem is the golden opportunity that I got to work as an Assistant Chemist for a year. It was life time experiences. And after that I resume my studies again.

Hope in future Bhutan will not have any Rongthong Kunley and Gidhafi like who on no account think prior to and regret only when death is right in front and wish to say: “To my country and my people, I pray: may all the gods, goddess, guardians and protectors, and all those of cosmic lineage, who command coincidence, always guide to protect you; may your positive karma, and your outer, inner and secret obstacles, be purified and cleared, may your negative karma, and your positive aspirations and actions, consequence glorious merit; may the times ahead bring you good future, prosperity, happiness and peace, and may all be auspicious for you”.

Pelden Drukpa Gyello!!! Not Drowa meeyee Wangcha Gorang Go.

People Cheat

People cheat. They cheat on their husbands, their wives, their life partners, boyfriends and girlfriends. Anyone can be a cheater and lots of people have cheated. Lots of members of the same group have been cheated on. Unfortunately, it has gotten to seem like cheating and being cheated on is a rite of passage. It shouldn't be, but it is. Most people set aside the potential health risks and justify their cheating as "not hurting anybody". Until the person that they've cheated on finds out. The emotional ramifications of being cheated on can be devastating and take a long time to get over. Not to mention the destruction of a relationship, way of life and in some cases, a family.

So, why do people cheat? If it's so potentially dangerous and has all kinds of side effects, why would people take the chance on cheating? It's important to remember that some cheating takes place when people are young. They might be a teenager and on a "self discovery" kick. It isn't uncommon for college students to cheat and be cheated on. This type of cheating is usually more understandable, because this is the time that we are discovering life on our own, how to be grown up and deal with grown up situations. If we were dating someone before we went to school, it's likely that for a while we will try to hold on to the best of both worlds. For lots of young people, this results in cheating and being cheated on.

This type of cheating can be hurtful and potentially pose a risk to the health of the people involved, but it isn't necessarily devastating. Most people who are cheated on at a young age recover emotionally and are able to move on with little or no relationship issues later.

The other type of frequent cheating that occurs can be found among committed couples, such as people who are married. While the excuses for this type of cheating run rampant, the real reasons usually amount to the same thing: dissatisfaction in their current relationship. This can be due to any number of factors: money, lack of communication, lack of understanding and attention, etc. The bottom line is, though, that cheating is often the result of one or more aspects of the relationship that cause unhappiness.

A cheater will often fantasize about the act for a while before it happens and many times, it's purely luck that they don't get caught the first time around. Since "cheating" is often brought about by a buildup of negativity and a need to gain immediate gratification, these situations may not be very well planned out at first. If "cheating" moves on to an affair the situation will usually take on a more planned and secretive dimension that is meant to keep people from finding out about it.

So, what is it that keeps some people from actually getting to the cheating stage, anyway? We all go out, we all meet new people and statistically, there are at least a hundred people that might be perfect for us. There is always someone out there that each one of us meets who we will find very attractive and they will find us to be the same. Why are so many people who are in committed relationships able to refrain from cheating?

The long and the short of it is that cheating is the result of an immature or selfish person who isn't looking into the long term of their relationship. They aren't considering what they could lose and at the moment, it doesn't matter. Lots of people entertain the idea of cheating, but when it comes to it, they never would. It's because these are the people who are committed to their relationship and everything that it encompasses; it would be foolish to ruin what they have for one night of instant gratification.

Royal Wedding In Punakha

Usually I set alarm to get up early in the morning to study. Whatever other work be I never set alarm to wake me up early. On the 12th midnight I was not sure whether I set it but early in the morning I heard my mobile alarm ringing so impressively. Out of my zeal to witness the joyous occasion I thought I have set it to remind me to witness the present that is going to be ultimately the history of nation. Immediately I took shower and get primed to sit in front of 24’’ TV.

The rising sun and its shining rays casing uniformly all the country, chirping birds, cool wind and smiling people was what I could feel and see soon I sit on the blue chair. The novelty of Phungthang Dewa Chenpoi Phodrang and it’s around serene scene adds more live to joy of the people. Soon the arrival of King, royal family, government heads, Je khenpo and guests from outside country ingredient the real feeling of witnessing the present. It is eventually the history. Sometimes history is painful and sometimes joyful. History can’t be written without pain or joy. But this was the day where history was decorated as a most joyous moment. We have won and we are victorious.

Everything was traditional. The sacred nuptial ceremony was sanctified in a traditional religious ceremony, which was performed in the grand Kuenra (congregation hall), the main seat of Drukpa Kagyue tradition. The religious ceremony had begun with His Holiness the Je Khenpo conducting the prayer of Zhabdrung Dag Nangma at Machhen lhakhang; while other Lopon and monks initiated Tshepa Mey prayer at the grand Kuenra.

His majesty the King received the Dar Na Nga, an arrangement of silk scarves in the five auspicious colours, representing the five elements. The Fourth Druk Gyalpo received the Dar Na Nga for the royal bride from Machhen and bestowed the silk scarves on her in the antechamber.

After receiving empowerment from the Zhabdrung Machhen, the sacred nuptial ceremony was performed. Je Khenpo initiated to chant sutras, Ngoe drup Langwa and offered Tashi lekdar. The representatives of government and the people offered the Mendrey, Ku, Sung, Thud and Thrinley (mandala, body, speech, mind, qualities and deeds), Tashi Ze-gye (eight auspicious articles), Gyal Sid Naduen(symbols of the universal emperor) and Tashi Tagye (eight auspicious symbols) to their Majesties the King and Queen.

After that the celebration with public started. There were special dedication songs and dances performed by different schools, senior citizens and dancers from RAPA. With delightful smile and curvy body movement, all dancers performed to their best.

His majesty the King and Queen met personally with all the people gathered and talk with them. The peoples’ wishes were conveyed. Guests from outside the country got golden opportunity to wish and converse with the King and Queen. With no encumbrance the day was ended with Tashi Labay. And let’s all reminisce with smile the history created together.

Palden Drukpa Gyello!!

Little Bird

Remember my story about Little Bird? You know the bird that I had to push away?

She didn’t want to go anywhere…she took walks with me perched on my finger…but one day, I had to push her away. I had to fling her up,up,up into the sky with a great big PUSH and JUMP. I had to fling him up as high as I could reach! Not because I wanted to…it’s the last thing I wanted to do! But because I knew he would be happier up in the trees and flying around in the sky with his family and friends…you know…where he belonged.

When I got her (my dad and I found her wounded in one wing, lying by the wayside), I loved her so much, and I wanted her to be mine forever. I nursed her back to health, and she became a part of my everyday life. We would take walks and she never tried to fly away.

But then after a while of having her, I found out that I loved her more than how I first loved her. I loved her so much now, that even if it would tear my heart out to throw him into the air under those big, big trees arched above me, I knew I had to do it because up there… in those trees… was where she was supposed to be. That’s where she would be really happy.

Even if she didn’t know it yet.

I did.

Some of us have little birds…but a different kind…a kind without wings. And some of us are little birds…someone’s little bird. We love so much that we want to keep forever. Then we fall even more in love later and we have to push away. Or we let someone take us in…someone who wants to keep us forever. Then they fall in love with us more and with a big PUSH and JUMP they fling us up,up,up into the sky as high as they can reach! Not because they want to…it’s the last thing they want to do! But because they know we’ll be happier somewhere where they can’t go…somewhere we belong.

Even if we don’t know it yet.

They do.

Smile when you read your Diary

For me everything I do is Random and Thoughts too.

I am in fact a fun loving person for which my name Duba justifies nonetheless. Fun is what I need really and enjoy all times, everywhere and with everybody. This is what gives me refreshing atmosphere and enjoyable jiffy. The instant I say something I feel myself smile and laugh for which my friends sometimes call me psycho. Whatsoever may be, the more you are witty, and more you are joyful. This is the real power of being comical.

When I was a little boy way back in my village, I used to do mischievous and take advantage of certain situation. I have my links with my friends who are all of same age. Together we did everything. Once we went to filch peach from an orchid. We knew that an orchid is guarded by a lady who can’t speak properly but can understand. We were five of us and went with bag each tied on back. We were tempted and rushed to the orchid as soon as we see a tree replete of fruit. We climbed up and got our own share. Suddenly we heard a familiar sound. To our dismay a lady was shouting to her pitch and was running to us. Without knowing anything to act we immediately ran. We were broken down of fear. And we cried a lot. Auuf!! What a great fear.

At the age of six I was admitted to school. It was three to four hours walk for kids but roughly one and half hour for adult. It was embarrassing for the first time with so many kids together. We had one Karalian Mathematics teacher who used to beat more than teaching. The moment he enter the class he’ll search for my friend Sonam who is his favorite to thrash him with slight mistake. “You you, Pangthangpa Gopoen (head of Pangthang village)” with this dialogue he will hit on his head. But he wouldn’t cry. We had terrible teacher while we were in primary school. They wouldn’t spare us for simple mistake. They would beat us as if we are not kids that we are there to learn from them.

Once, it’s my friend Pema, who is now employed as health professional, we were in class one. There was no teacher in EVS class. We were shouting and chatting. All of a sudden he unconstrained huge gas. The moment he stood up I saw a potato slice that was popped out from his ass. We couldn’t control the situation. He was blushed. From that we called him Joktang.

As a young boy I have to walk everyday three hours to school and back home too. In total I had to walk six hours daily. The journey was challenging during summer. Many hungry leeches, snakes, ugly langurs, naughty monkeys and cute birds were what we used to encounter daily. This incident occurred one fine afternoon when I was on my journey back home after Saturday classes. My friends were together with me. All of sudden we saw a big grand monkey collecting maize in the field below the path. We shouted at, but no damn. Then I told my friends to be silent and I said “Oii zala meymey hang aancha?”(What you are doing monkey grandfather?). he happily smiled back at us. We were shocked and busted to laugh. Again my friend asked, “nan ga aabee ooga deewa ya?”(Where is your mate-grandmother?). He was silent for a while and walked away in the forest. That time we were young to think, why this monkey smiled at us and why he went silently in the forest when we ask where your grandmother is. When I think today I feel I am smiling inside. May be she is death. May be he came alone or maybe she gave birth. We can see how understanding the adult animals are like human adults.

It was again one fine Sunday afternoon; I was on journey with my friends to attend the evening and night study. I was suffering from diarrhea. We had one girl with us. In fact most of my friend loves the girl but they couldn’t confess to her. We were chatting and walking. All of a sudden I lost control to hold; luckily I was with my long pant. I thought she heard the sound. I was blushed for a while. Thinking off I looked at them, they were on the go. Slowly I dragged myself back from them and changed my pant and thrown away in the bushes. By then I was in class six. From that day I comprehend never to walk with girls if I am suffering from diarrhea. It’ll be terrible if she knows.

Here in CST there are many red dogs. They know who are residing in the campus. If we hear them barking cruelly, it is for sure that the outsider is inside the campus. Once I was walking to my class. A dog, oldest of all was waiting, May be not for me. But he was looking to me as if I have hit him. When I was near he is still looking to me. Then I instantly took my book and hit on his forehead. Immediately he ran away with sympathetic mourn. Sometimes I feel animals too cheat me .. hahaha..

When I share these to my friends they all laugh hysterically. They even told me not to repeat such in future since they can’t bear to laugh tearfully.

Our life is uncertain you know. We in no way know when we will eternally leave this wonderful mother earth. Actually we are born to die. In the journey of our own life we face with any kind of situations. When we think back, it seems we are reading our diary. And it gives a refreshing and jovial instant. Whatever the situation be, it is for sure that one day or other we will remember it. So, that is why once when we are having the golden opportunity to be as human, write your diary to the fullest and smile when you read it after long long time back.

Feel thy Love

On the joyous occasion of historic wedding I would wish if all the Bhutanese couple, who were married, who are engaged, who are lovers and who that is going to be a part in their life to celebrate to the best and feel the essence of love. It is golden opportunity to show your best love and get blessing since the day is very propitious. Don’t miss it!!!

Show the real love like that of Singye and Galaem. Tomorrow might be too late, act now and let your partner feel the power of your love.  Let the chill wind of the day bring brightening happiness and showering blessing to all the love birds of the country in their future love life.

It’s for sure that in the journey of your love life you face lots of problems, forget all those faults on that day instead and spend more time with your real angel.

Make them feel special, for, you never know when time will take them away from you forever!!!

When I am Disheartened & Impair

Do you see my endless tears in the water?
Do you see my broken heart as the waves form and crash?
Do you see the permanent damage as the creases in the water never fade?
Do you see my reflection as u feel your sense of right and wrong?

I am not just a little boy who fell down and hurt his knee…
I am a little boy who fell in love and had his heart torn apart.

To breathe seems like a chore… 

To open my eyes in the morning seems like a waste…
To trust seems impossible…
To smile seems so far away…
To laugh feels like a craving…

To love again is and will always be a dream that never comes true.
I am not myself anymore…

My chest hurts…
My heart aches…
My eyes weep…

And my body feels like it’s covered in endless flames… 

Peace seems so distant…
And my eyes are just not good enough to find it.

Together

It is a sort of simple commitment to my new friend- alike to my earlier friend in everthing except her looks. Thank you all commentators, to my earlier posts, for which your wishes and good luck is answered by dear God. And hope this time I wouldn't give you all a chance to wish for me.
Here it is....

Started at the beginning
Taking it nice and slow
Getting to know each other
And let the rest follow.

You know my other name
I know your favourite song
The nervousness is passing
I’m sure we’ll get along.

It’s been four weeks now
Time spent (in phone) together
Maybe you’ll be closer
Like birds of a feather.

Weeks, months – a year
The future is looking good
Love is growing constantly
Just like I hoped it would.

One day we’re getting married
And now we’re husband and wife
Love will conquer everything
For the rest of our life.

Being in Love

This is predominate because there are so many different kinds of love. But in respect to true love...

We spend so much of our life watching life represented, mostly imprecisely, through film and fairy-tales. We grow up believing that to fall in love is either to find someone who will save us or a one in a million chance.

We either grow to become doubtful of it, or we grow to fall in love with just an idea.

In our immaturity we think we have a grasp on love and describe it in a million ways. We think that it's the butterflies in our stomach when that significant other takes hold of our hand, when they call us repeatedly throughout the day or when you can't stop thinking about someone. These things are only indicative of passion, however. When we're young, so many things will cause butterflies or blushing. It will feel as though our heart is flying.

True love, however, must be mature love. I don't feel that there are specific guidelines or symptoms for having fallen in love and that does make it a little difficult to define. But, if we're uncertain, then chances are, we're not in love.

The few things I believe love convey are: respect, loyalty, honesty, compromise, and comfort among the warm emotional feelings that we may or may not express so easily.

A few things that we misconceive love of being are: harmless and easy.

Love doesn't mean never getting into disagreements and it doesn't mean never getting hurt. Humans are naturally flawed and it's likely that even the person whom we love with all our heart is bound to take us for granted sometimes or say things that are bound to hurt you. Love is so much about compromise and the willingness to. And remember don’t promise anything instead be committed. If we promise we are hopeful to break it. But commitment is otherwise.

To love is a beautiful and fulfilling feeling, but it's important that we all be aware and realistic about it when need be. Like nothing on this earth, love is not perfect the way we seem to expect it to be, although it's certainly worth it.

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Footba...

It was Terrible

It was very terrible. The way it came, the way it shaked, the way it sounded and the way it died out was totally different. Natural desaster- thorny to predict and control. When it comes it comes as if we encounter tiger right in front.

I never thought to experience such.  The moment I felt first shake I thought it was for a while. I thought its common. But it was not. I was browsing net and chating with my friends.  The magnitue increased suddenly and light went off!!! Ahh!! I am death. The greatest fear ever ensue in my life!! It started shuddering like anything. There was unusual sound that is too frightening. Suddenly I heard sound of metal falling form a height. I thougt Rinchen Khanzang is falling down and life end!!!

I was fixed in the jiffy. Did not know what to do. Suddenly I glided under  table. I didn’t felt my heart bit - was death for a while. I was frozen. I was half necked. I search for my mobile- light to lead me to the safer side but in vain. Suddenly I felt it was gone. Then slowly I search for mobile and went out.

The moment I got out from my room I heard girls screaming and crying. Boys were shouting as if they were chasing a tiger and rushing through the stair case. Then I thought of my parents and relatives. I tried to call them and to my dismay I could  not contact anyone of them. I assumed they are fine and safe.

Then I went near canopy and suddenly  many things strikes my mind which I never thought on no account before. First I thought how great engineers are. How great we are in profession but we can’t fight with natural disaster. But we can control that it can’t over take. Buildings are design for the safety of earthquake, fire, wind and etc. That’s why I was safe. Not only me almost all the people in the country.

Somebody said;

"It is a great profesion. There is the fascination of watching a figment of the imagination emerge through the aid of science to a plan on paper. Then it moves to realization in stone or metal or energy. Then it brings jobs and homes to men. Then it elevates the standards of living and adds to the comfort of life. That is the engineer’s high privilege.

The great liability of the engineer compared to men of other professions is that his works are open where all can see them. His acts, step by step, are in hard substance. He cannot bury his mistakes in the grave like the doctors. He cannot argue them into thin air or blame the judge like the lawyers. He cannot, like the architects, cover his failures with trees an vines. He cannot, like the politicians, screen his shortcomings by blaming his opponents and hope that the people will forget. The engineer simply cannot deny that he did it. If his works donot work, he is damned."

Our life isn’t assured. We can’t say we’ll leave that long. When such tremour strikes I forgot to chant mani or Baza Guru. I thought I would have died without single mani or Baza Guru chanted if everything  were shattered and fallen apart. Auuff!!! How uncertain it is. From the crowd I heard someone saying; “from today I wouldn’t miss prayer” – conducted once a week. Propbably  he is an  active bunker from the prayer.

Just pray while you are alive for death is uncertain!!!

Official Breakup!!!!

2 days ago, we have officially broken up. I was sound asleep. It was 12:04 am. I heard caller ringtone of my mobile ringing so impressively- Rangsem gawai bu mee khar tshue pey bu. I never thought you will be the one… It was my suspended girl friend Om.

You told me about your real past and why you couldn't get the relationship going on anymore.

You don’t want to lug me down. I know I had made a biggest mistake. My heart still pain when I think of. In fact you don’t want me to perturb your life with your new one.

I understand you.

So I have decided to be friend with you again because I know that is the only way we could talk to each other again without stress and tension, despite how loath and afraid I was.

I’m happy that we broke up in a good term and we still talk to each other, but I don’t know if you are doing it because you are guilty of me or you are sincerely care about me, so I don’t know how long our friendship will last, honestly, I’m still in fear, but not so much anymore.

Sometimes I wish I could be the first one who get to know you first, so you will never be hurt, never be abandoned, I will love you and protect you fiercely.

If only I was there for you, I will make sure nobody can hurt you.

If only I was there for you, I will never allow you to hurt yourself.

If only I was there for you, I will prevent tragedy from happening.

If only I was there for you…you will never need to go through all the pain, you will be the happiest woman in the world.

But too bad…we met at the wrong time. I wish that in the future we could still come back to each other, but a wish is just a wish…I won’t hold my hope too high for now. We both have our own goals to achieve and we should concentrate on them.

Anyway, I admit, I’m still madly in love with you, I need time to heal myself and to put you aside, but I wish in the future, I will love you in a better way.

My dearest, as long as you are happy, I will be happy for you, no matter where you are, please promise me to take care of yourself.

Please do not die; you will live for a very long time. You will be doing good, in fact, you must.

You must live your life to the fullest.

I still love you, so very much. And thank you very much for the haunting advices... I hope one day it will subsist in real.

Good luck and I’ll be missing you in my life.

The Love

The greatest problem of life is

not that men perish, but that

they cease to love.

Love is like war, easy to

begin but hard to end.

It breaks your heart to see the one

you love is happy with someone else,

but it’s more painful to know that

the one you love is unhappy with you.

To the world you may be just one person,

but to one person you may be the world.

If love is the answer,

can you please repeat

the question?

Love cures people — both the

ones who give it and the ones

who receive it.

Love is like a river, always

changing, but always finding

you again somewhere down the

road.

My Dedication

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all.

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith because you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me.

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you.

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you.

I LOVE YOU.

I know you are there in India...

I know that you are in Madhya Pradhis, India. I think the land is calling me. I know this is where you are. I feel it in my heart that you are home for me. You are Bartsham princess.

I see you with your dark flame red gold hair, golden eyes, and tanned skin; when I close my eyes. I hear your deep tone of voice caressing my ears, along with your deep echoing laugh. I get a pain in my neck looking up at your photos. I know the feel of your skin, the intoxicating scent of your skin, the hard planes of your body, and the familiarity of your voice and the unlimited dialogue. Your honesty, trust, loyalty, and caring endear you to no end. The intelligence, boldness, and courtesy shows you are the rock I need. You will always provide and I will be content I think..

You haunt my dreams. I will long for the day to meet you. I know that I must be open and ready to receive the happiness that I will get after meeting you. I am ready now.
This is my missive to the universe. Bring her who I am destined to be with to me, I want the other half of my soul. The throbbing grows ever more obvious. I wait on you with open arms.

Don't mind!!!!

Tomorrow might be too Late

When I’ll be dead, your tears will flow,
But I won’t know
Cry for me now instead!

When I’ll be dead, you will pray for me,
But I won’t see
Pray for me now instead!

When I’ll be dead, you’ll say words of praise,
But I won’t hear
Praise me now instead!

When I’ll be dead, you’ll forget my faults
But I won’t know
Forget then now, instead!

When I’ll be dead, you’ll miss me then
But I won’t feel
Miss me now, instead!

When I’ll be dead, you’ll wish you had spent more time with me,
Spend it now instead!!

Spend time with every person you love, every one you care for. Make them
feel special, for, you never know when time will take them away from you
forever!!!!

College LifE : Outcome

The moment when I saw -you are selected for BE courses for example on the declaration of the selected students in the respective colleges under RUB, my thinking actually was or is never an intention to work hard and come out as successful person. I think only to see and enjoy the beauty of charming and sexy girls, jam session where most of the student will be a first timer.

College years have a lot to teach one individual and each one will stumble upon their path in their own time. But in the mean time it is all about experiencing opportunities at every corner to find what you like. I guarantee very few people will stick with the first idea they decide to pursue and discover the real diamond in them. 




Industrial tour



scene from industrial tour to calcutta



Tag nite,2010

Having learned and developed the skill to think for our self instead of what we were being taught in the classroom should change our life and it will be wonder to mention tremendously. Everyone has to travel their own path and in this time we will discover what makes us happy. For me that will be learning to think for myself.

Therefore, college will be definitely the best years of my life because these years will teach me the best lesson in life: be content in whatever we do and happiness will follow.



Enjoying football match




The most basic thing is to study, work hard and discover what is within oneself. Jamming, romancing, partying etc is like part time work.