When I am Disheartened & Impair

Do you see my endless tears in the water?
Do you see my broken heart as the waves form and crash?
Do you see the permanent damage as the creases in the water never fade?
Do you see my reflection as u feel your sense of right and wrong?

I am not just a little boy who fell down and hurt his knee…
I am a little boy who fell in love and had his heart torn apart.

To breathe seems like a chore… 

To open my eyes in the morning seems like a waste…
To trust seems impossible…
To smile seems so far away…
To laugh feels like a craving…

To love again is and will always be a dream that never comes true.
I am not myself anymore…

My chest hurts…
My heart aches…
My eyes weep…

And my body feels like it’s covered in endless flames… 

Peace seems so distant…
And my eyes are just not good enough to find it.

Together

It is a sort of simple commitment to my new friend- alike to my earlier friend in everthing except her looks. Thank you all commentators, to my earlier posts, for which your wishes and good luck is answered by dear God. And hope this time I wouldn't give you all a chance to wish for me.
Here it is....

Started at the beginning
Taking it nice and slow
Getting to know each other
And let the rest follow.

You know my other name
I know your favourite song
The nervousness is passing
I’m sure we’ll get along.

It’s been four weeks now
Time spent (in phone) together
Maybe you’ll be closer
Like birds of a feather.

Weeks, months – a year
The future is looking good
Love is growing constantly
Just like I hoped it would.

One day we’re getting married
And now we’re husband and wife
Love will conquer everything
For the rest of our life.

Being in Love

This is predominate because there are so many different kinds of love. But in respect to true love...

We spend so much of our life watching life represented, mostly imprecisely, through film and fairy-tales. We grow up believing that to fall in love is either to find someone who will save us or a one in a million chance.

We either grow to become doubtful of it, or we grow to fall in love with just an idea.

In our immaturity we think we have a grasp on love and describe it in a million ways. We think that it's the butterflies in our stomach when that significant other takes hold of our hand, when they call us repeatedly throughout the day or when you can't stop thinking about someone. These things are only indicative of passion, however. When we're young, so many things will cause butterflies or blushing. It will feel as though our heart is flying.

True love, however, must be mature love. I don't feel that there are specific guidelines or symptoms for having fallen in love and that does make it a little difficult to define. But, if we're uncertain, then chances are, we're not in love.

The few things I believe love convey are: respect, loyalty, honesty, compromise, and comfort among the warm emotional feelings that we may or may not express so easily.

A few things that we misconceive love of being are: harmless and easy.

Love doesn't mean never getting into disagreements and it doesn't mean never getting hurt. Humans are naturally flawed and it's likely that even the person whom we love with all our heart is bound to take us for granted sometimes or say things that are bound to hurt you. Love is so much about compromise and the willingness to. And remember don’t promise anything instead be committed. If we promise we are hopeful to break it. But commitment is otherwise.

To love is a beautiful and fulfilling feeling, but it's important that we all be aware and realistic about it when need be. Like nothing on this earth, love is not perfect the way we seem to expect it to be, although it's certainly worth it.

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It was Terrible

It was very terrible. The way it came, the way it shaked, the way it sounded and the way it died out was totally different. Natural desaster- thorny to predict and control. When it comes it comes as if we encounter tiger right in front.

I never thought to experience such.  The moment I felt first shake I thought it was for a while. I thought its common. But it was not. I was browsing net and chating with my friends.  The magnitue increased suddenly and light went off!!! Ahh!! I am death. The greatest fear ever ensue in my life!! It started shuddering like anything. There was unusual sound that is too frightening. Suddenly I heard sound of metal falling form a height. I thougt Rinchen Khanzang is falling down and life end!!!

I was fixed in the jiffy. Did not know what to do. Suddenly I glided under  table. I didn’t felt my heart bit - was death for a while. I was frozen. I was half necked. I search for my mobile- light to lead me to the safer side but in vain. Suddenly I felt it was gone. Then slowly I search for mobile and went out.

The moment I got out from my room I heard girls screaming and crying. Boys were shouting as if they were chasing a tiger and rushing through the stair case. Then I thought of my parents and relatives. I tried to call them and to my dismay I could  not contact anyone of them. I assumed they are fine and safe.

Then I went near canopy and suddenly  many things strikes my mind which I never thought on no account before. First I thought how great engineers are. How great we are in profession but we can’t fight with natural disaster. But we can control that it can’t over take. Buildings are design for the safety of earthquake, fire, wind and etc. That’s why I was safe. Not only me almost all the people in the country.

Somebody said;

"It is a great profesion. There is the fascination of watching a figment of the imagination emerge through the aid of science to a plan on paper. Then it moves to realization in stone or metal or energy. Then it brings jobs and homes to men. Then it elevates the standards of living and adds to the comfort of life. That is the engineer’s high privilege.

The great liability of the engineer compared to men of other professions is that his works are open where all can see them. His acts, step by step, are in hard substance. He cannot bury his mistakes in the grave like the doctors. He cannot argue them into thin air or blame the judge like the lawyers. He cannot, like the architects, cover his failures with trees an vines. He cannot, like the politicians, screen his shortcomings by blaming his opponents and hope that the people will forget. The engineer simply cannot deny that he did it. If his works donot work, he is damned."

Our life isn’t assured. We can’t say we’ll leave that long. When such tremour strikes I forgot to chant mani or Baza Guru. I thought I would have died without single mani or Baza Guru chanted if everything  were shattered and fallen apart. Auuff!!! How uncertain it is. From the crowd I heard someone saying; “from today I wouldn’t miss prayer” – conducted once a week. Propbably  he is an  active bunker from the prayer.

Just pray while you are alive for death is uncertain!!!

Official Breakup!!!!

2 days ago, we have officially broken up. I was sound asleep. It was 12:04 am. I heard caller ringtone of my mobile ringing so impressively- Rangsem gawai bu mee khar tshue pey bu. I never thought you will be the one… It was my suspended girl friend Om.

You told me about your real past and why you couldn't get the relationship going on anymore.

You don’t want to lug me down. I know I had made a biggest mistake. My heart still pain when I think of. In fact you don’t want me to perturb your life with your new one.

I understand you.

So I have decided to be friend with you again because I know that is the only way we could talk to each other again without stress and tension, despite how loath and afraid I was.

I’m happy that we broke up in a good term and we still talk to each other, but I don’t know if you are doing it because you are guilty of me or you are sincerely care about me, so I don’t know how long our friendship will last, honestly, I’m still in fear, but not so much anymore.

Sometimes I wish I could be the first one who get to know you first, so you will never be hurt, never be abandoned, I will love you and protect you fiercely.

If only I was there for you, I will make sure nobody can hurt you.

If only I was there for you, I will never allow you to hurt yourself.

If only I was there for you, I will prevent tragedy from happening.

If only I was there for you…you will never need to go through all the pain, you will be the happiest woman in the world.

But too bad…we met at the wrong time. I wish that in the future we could still come back to each other, but a wish is just a wish…I won’t hold my hope too high for now. We both have our own goals to achieve and we should concentrate on them.

Anyway, I admit, I’m still madly in love with you, I need time to heal myself and to put you aside, but I wish in the future, I will love you in a better way.

My dearest, as long as you are happy, I will be happy for you, no matter where you are, please promise me to take care of yourself.

Please do not die; you will live for a very long time. You will be doing good, in fact, you must.

You must live your life to the fullest.

I still love you, so very much. And thank you very much for the haunting advices... I hope one day it will subsist in real.

Good luck and I’ll be missing you in my life.

The Love

The greatest problem of life is

not that men perish, but that

they cease to love.

Love is like war, easy to

begin but hard to end.

It breaks your heart to see the one

you love is happy with someone else,

but it’s more painful to know that

the one you love is unhappy with you.

To the world you may be just one person,

but to one person you may be the world.

If love is the answer,

can you please repeat

the question?

Love cures people — both the

ones who give it and the ones

who receive it.

Love is like a river, always

changing, but always finding

you again somewhere down the

road.

My Dedication

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all.

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith because you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me.

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you.

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you.

I LOVE YOU.