World turns around with wholly realms and sufferings. Neither can I afford to stop you nor can I over come you, the death. You simply swept away whoever comes your way, be someone rich, poor, simple, arrogant, vagabond and intelligent. And yet the preys don’t know the time of your arrival. And thus you become leveler. This is how you snatch away my friend one day before.
We were good friend. It may not be more than a year or less being friend with you on facebook. Facebook was our medium to know everything about us. I shared with her everything. Everything we converge to know more and more in every chat we had.
With no doubt I felt that I knew her in every bit of her life and herself as a girl. She was who she loves to be loved. She was who cares to be taken care of. She was too the victim of her love and I could easily figure out from every condemned status.
She used to say how her life is and how far she can go before her death. And I thought she shared everything about her.
But I was wrong. I was wrong for I didn’t really know the biggest suffering that she has tried to endured. She shared happiness and laughter with all and beared the pain all alone. Never will I could have helped her succeed to fight the sickness but I would have at least make her happy for she required a lot. She didn’t reveal to me. She left me in no doubt confirming me that I know her best. She was so greedy to let me know thinking of my pain knowing her disease.
She left the college fighting for the pain. She was lone daughter of her both working parents.
And now after knowing her departure from her parents and friends, I checked her profile. It was so paining and my heart melt off with loads of regret and compassion. The status on her wall meant a lot. Each and every second of her life, she struggled to live better. She already knew the world is gonna end for her. And I still feel bad on her for she shunned sharing her suffering. And early morning, exactly a month after our chat she left us behind succumbing to cancer.
These are the list of painful status of her on facebook wall;
‘I can’t change my past and I am left with no future... Few months left’. This was her last status with so much pain and feelings that she loves to go back and see the future.
On 3rd May; ‘Day seems so beautiful 2day’. How lovely was she for a moment at that instant? And I feel the pain.
On 2nd May; ‘Tim 2 time... Sec by sec... My life is getting near to death. I want 2 lives 4ever......’ At this point she was suffering a lot with everything knowing that she is leaving behind and on this I commented saying ‘that itself shows that it’s your life!! The leveler we can't have choice as to when we want!!’ And for her the leveler was all known before. Why you didn’t tell me before?
On 1st may; ‘Life is beautiful... I realize few days b4 only’.
On 20th April; ‘Wish everything was normal with me but unlucky I have 2 leave’.
On 16th April; ‘When u r death.... Pain of outside wont able to kill u once more...’
On 16th April; ‘Truth hurts then y 2 tell truth.... Lie is better...haha’. How jovial and kiddy was she at this moment?
No outsider can understand the bereavement. And hope with time goes by; it becomes bearable for her dear and near one specially parents left behind steady with so much pain. I offer my deepest condolence and prayer for her soul to rest in peace.